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Guess who else i'm going to see????? NEXT WEEK!!!

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Another week with no weight loss.

Not sure what i'm doing wrong. Well, actually I kind of know.

I "only" went to the gym three times last week. Not so long ago going to the gym three times in one week would have been an outstanding effort, now i'm upset with myself cos I wussed out on Thurday with a sore throat and sinus (it was pretty bad) and I couldn't be bothered dragging my sorry arse out of bed.

My weight is the same as it was at my first official Curves weigh in (79). It goes down and nearly gets to 78 neat and then jumps back up again. I'm not sure why, except that i'm struggling to drink water at the moment (oh okay and my eating has slipped a bit).

I need to pull my finger out and get skinnier otherwise somebody in blog land is getting my Gwen Stefani ticket!!! (** see disclaimer below).

So, today is THREE MONTHS since I gave up smoking. Who would have thunk it! It's been quite easy this time. I guess cos I really wanted to, so even if I haven't lost any weight yet (but I will) i'm pretty happy with maintaining while all that has been going on. Yay me (* gives self pat on back *).

So, some recent photos, for those who are interested:


We've been building block cities. I build one every night (sometimes DH does it) and DS knocks it down on the morning. He loves it!!

This is my little ray of sunshine at a Maccas Birthday party today (about 10 minutes before he cracked the shits and I had to drag his scrawny little butt out of there and take him home, cos he decided to have a tantrum). He looks so angelic but believe me, it's all a put on!! If I had an extra hand I would have taken a photo of him when I was trying to force him into his car seat. He was doing that stiff body thing that 2 year olds love to do so much, whilst trying to scratch my eyes out and kick every part of my body at once. That would have been a good photo for his 21st album!!

Anyhoo, at Curves they have what they call a "6 week solution" programme which is about weight loss. It starts on Monday 7th and goes for 7 weeks (I know that doesn't make sense but who am I to question their intelligence!!). The first night is an information session. It costs $99 over and above what I already pay but it's cheaper than WW. I just feel like I need some supervision at the moment and any help is good help. In the brochure it says "you'll learn a safe and effective weight management programme for life". They track my progress weekly and give me a personal chart. It can't hurt I guess. I always apply WW points principals to meals anyway and although i'm not eating too much of the wrong thing I could do with some strict guidelines for a while to kick start my weight loss again. Oh and i've been having issues with portion sizes lately too, going to the gym just makes me so hungry.

Has anyone out there done this programme? I would love to hear your thoughts.

The only other news from my world is that we had a bit of drama at home recently. I came home from work a few weeks ago and the house was flooded. We put in a claim and we are lucky enough to be getting some of the damaged contents replaced. Thank goodness for Insurance. I don't understand why some people just don't bother with it.

Okay, I had better go and tidy up a bit. Hope you're all having a great week. Hopefully my good work at the gym will pay off soon and a whole heap of weight will drop off me!! I'm so sick of feeling fat.

** I probably won't really give away my ticket, but i'm trying to trick myself into losing weight so that I don't have to!! hahaha

No surprises here really ... (thanks Wanna)

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At last.....

I have my home computer back up and running again. Look out cos that means i'll be checking up on you all over the coming week!!

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The Polar F11 - not much change from $300 so it better be worth it. I think i'll have to get a pilot's licence to figure out how to work the damn thing. If anybody out there knows stuff about them, please help me!

Nearly there

We're nearly at the end of another week, the time is just flying by so quickly - maybe it's cos i'm over the hill now, but it feels like it was just Christmas a couple of weeks ago and now it's nearly May!! WTF??

I have been to the gym 4 times this week already and i'm going again tomorrow. I'll leave weekends for housework and shopping at this stage, although DH is off this weekend so I could go on Saturday morning, it's tempting. I'll see what time I wake up. We're going on a family shopping expedition on Saturday. I want to get a Heart rate monitor/watch thing. Any suggestions? We have some Westfield vouchers to use and I think there's a large sports store at the Westfield on the Central Coast so I might have a look there.

Eating has been good except for avoiding the lollie jar at work, i'm not having much luck with it this week. I am only having 2 or 3 lollies a day but they all add up. I'm going to try not to have any today. It's my own fault cos i'm the one who bought the lollies to go in the jar. Durr!!

My weight is steadily decreasing on the scales so i'm very thankful for that, I really thought I was going back up into the 80's there for a little while. Yikes.

On a 'pat on the back' note - I have been thinking for a while that I really should go and have a 'grease and oil change' at the doctors. There was a discussion about this on Mary's blog a while ago and i've been feeling guilty ever since then, so I finally went and did it yesterday. Yay me. It was nowhere near as bad as I remembered, although I haven't had one since my six week check-up after having DS so it's been a while!

OK, back to work now.

New week

New week = new attitude.

I'm not saying my attitude was bad last week but I had a few days where I didn't care what I ate, so I have to keep an eye on that. Back to tracking here and i'm trying to drink 3 litres of water a day. I had no trouble with this on Sat/Sun but i'm struggling today, although looking at my bottle i've had nearly half already so i'm actually doing better than I thought.

Food has been great today so far. I bought a $20 fruit and veg box from a guy who comes around every week so we have enough fresh F&V for the week and we have a few things in the freezer I need to use up so I probably won't have to do groceries until the end of the week.

Scales are still being stubborn and have only come down a little (this morning's weight 78.8kg) after being 79.8 last week. Here's hoping the weight starts falling off me soon, especially if I do 4 x gym this week and track everything I eat.

Official weigh in No 1.

I had my first official weigh in and measurements at the gym this morning. I guess that means i've been a member for a month, wow that went quick.

Results:
Body fat has reduced by 2.5%
Measurements have decreased by 6cm overall

So, i've gained a kilo (on their scales as well) but they are saying that most people gain weight in their first month of going to the gym because you're gaining muscle. Personally I didn't think it happened that quickly but obviously it does.

On a lighter note, I shouted myself a new pair of shoes last night. They are the ones in the middle of this photo. Very cool and a bargain at $29.99.

Update

I didn't realise how long it had been since I had posted. So here is the week in review:

Went to Canberra, ate really well - made healthy choices where I could and even went out one day and bought fresh brown bread rolls, chicken and salad because the family were having pizza. I went for a walk around the lake near my sister's house on the Friday (over an hour) and did heaps of incidental exercise as well. I didn't snack too much and was very proud of my eating. Also got TTOTM while I was away so I figured I would have a good loss when I got home cos I always put on/take off a kilo at TTOTM time.

Got home and the scales told me i'd put on a kilo - PUT ON A KILO - What the????????????

I hate my scales.

I went back to the gym today and i'll go again tomorrow. I'm not giving up but it's just very depressing when you make an effort (and you normally wouldn't bother) and the scales still go the wrong way. Ho hum .....

On the bright side - looks like I might be getting my computer at home back soon. Cross everything you can for me!!

A quickie

I still don't have a computer at home, there is just one problem after another with it. I'm hoping to getting it back next week otherwise i'll have to look at buying a new one.

I had a good loss of 0.8 this week and i'm very pleased with myself. My next goal is to get under 75 - but that has been my goal now for about 18 months so i'm still struggling with it. Once I get past this I think I will shoot ahead in leaps and bounds.

We are going to Canberra for Easter to see my family. I'm looking forward to having a break. We will probably be back home Sunday night, maybe Monday morning, depending on how we feel. I have Tuesday off work too so an extra long weekend

I have been to the gym three times this week and i'm going again tomorrow, i'm very proud of myself for keeping this up, usually i've quit by now.

Work is still busy.

I miss reading your blogs so much.

Hope you're all doing okay.

Please don't each too much chocolate over Easter!! and have a good long weekend!

It's bad, it's bad, it's really really bad .....

Got on the scales last week and saw that i'd put on even more weight. Got really cranky and instead of doing the right thing and continuing my good work I blew everything with a weekend of major junk food overload. You don't even want to know half the stuff I ate, it's so embarrassing.

Now this morning i'm even heavier than I was at the start of this year.
I'm fat.
I'm tired.
I'm exhausted.
I'm also angry, sad, disappointed with myself, pissed off and over it.

So, I started today with a weight of 79.2 kilos (so close to 80 kilos that it gave me a really big fright this morning), but i'm sure TTOTM is very close so that could be another reason for the gain. I still should be a lot lighter than this and I can't get over how i've let myself get back to nearly 80 kilos - i'm not very bright am I?? I can't believe I was 73.5 last year and I feel like i'll never get back there never mind get down to sixty anything point anything.

BUT ..... Today is a new day and I have started again (again, again, again, again, again).

To remind myself that i'm heading in the right direction here are the good things I have done this year:

1. I have finally given up smoking (2 months, 4 days and counting) and I don't miss it.
2. I have all but given up drinking and I don't miss that either.
3. I have joined the gym and I am loving it.

Now all I need to do is not give up on myself, keep up the good work, continue with 4 days a week of gym, decrease my food intake (including no more junk binges) and I know i'll get there eventually, I just need to have faith and keep going and remember that I am worth it. It won't happen overnight, but it will happen!!